ENTRY 2 (27 JANUARY 2016)

I've been saved. By God, my family and friends.

But I don't think it's enough.

         Enough to spare me from these moments of insanity.

I still crave for more.

I'm begging to whomever you are.

Rescue me from all of these things.

        Because I can't run anymore. I repeatedly tried. But I keep on stumbling... and faltering... I can't take it no more.

And now, I find no reason to keep on fighting.

Because whenever I do, still nothing happens.

Yes, I am willing to wait.

       But wait till what? Till I don't have enough strength to keep up with everything anymore? Or till I just completely lose everything?

How I wish I was just some document that you can save anytime and delete whenever you wanted to.

But I am not.

I am human.

I am real. Real as I can be.

I am patient.

      But everything just doesn't work for me. Things are using all of the patience that is still left within me.

And I am not asking for anything except grace and mercy.

      Or should I just say, MIRACLE?